Wednesday, April 8, 2009

I'm struggling

Could I ask for you to pray for me?

Tomorrow will mark the 5 month anniversary since my Sweet Hubby went to be with the Lord. And I am really struggling...I miss him so very much. There are no words to describe it.

He was my best friend, the one I wanted to be with above all others, my soul mate, the father of my children, my partner in all things, my protector, my biggest fan, my be all end all, the one who made me feel safe and secure, my playmate...he was the other half of me. I am so lonely without him. So lonely FOR him.

These last weeks have left me almost paralyzed at times...I feel like all I do is cry.

I tell the Lord that I just feel so broken...I know He cares, but still...I miss him.

Could I ask for you to pray for me?


10 comments:

Dawn said...

I can't even imagine! I am praying for you this moment.

I would ask you for prayer as well - come over and see my request. Thank you!

Gigi said...

Thank you Dawn...

I did and I will...

Sammy said...

Hi Gigi,

I'm here from Dawn's place. And I am praying for you right now.

I am so sorry for your tremendous loss.

Sammy

Gigi said...

Thank you Sammy. I'm grateful for your prayers.

Tamela's Place said...

i will pray for you right now gigi,

Father God i pray for gigi right now and i ask you to bring her the comfort that she needs that transcends all understanding, i ask you Father to speak a word of comfort to her and to reveal yourself to her in a mighty way the way you know that only gigi will understand. In Jesus Name! Amen! and i will continue to pray you gigi.

Gigi said...

Thank you so much Tamela...{{hugs}}

Jody said...

Gigi,
Just returned from my mom's late thursday night and getting back into the groove of life. Catching up on with friends and saw this post.
My daily reading has taken me through Job recently, and I share Job 23 and is titled Where is God? because I know when it comes to death, grief, etc. God seems distant at times or quiet. Even in the darkness and the raw emotions you are feeling now, I can't even imagine the death of a dear spouse, but you know I understand deep grief. So even with Job when he was in the darkness, v.17-18, he doesn't understand the path God has put him on or his purposes for him he is still compelled to trust in God. God's ways and purposes are sometimes a mystery. Praying right now that our God and Saviour will give you a His spirit to comfort and put His loving arms around you.

Greg said...

Hi, Gigi. I've seen you comment on Jim Leasure's blog many times, but this might be the first time I've stopped by. I'm very sorry that you've lost your husband, and I will be praying that the Lord will continue to comfort you. He is the Great Comforter, after all, and the kind of comfort He brings is so much more than a "There, there, all better." It's peace and assurance. :)

The way you talk about your husband is the same way my wife and I talk about each other. :) I'll drop by again, to see how you're doing.

Jennifer Perkins said...

Someday... (I promise) It won't hurt so badly... the pain does fade, and the "anniversaries" won't always hurt so badly. Lean upon the Lord, cry out to Him, and find a few friends to cry with.

(((hugs)))

Jennifer

nancygrayce said...

I'm so sorry Gigi! I can't imagine life without my husband. I'll be praying!