Monday, August 10, 2009

He's not shaken

Another milestone passed by's been 9 months since my Sweet Hubby went to be with the Lord. And most days I'm still in disbelief. How can it be? We had so many plans...dreams...

So many days I just cry to the Lord, "I don't understand..."

And while losing my precious husband devastated my entire world - left it tilted and forever changed, HE'S not shaken. My God is still my Rock and my salvation. I know He has a plan for my life because His Word is clear.

Someone posted on my bereavement forum through CancerCare that, "it (living without our spouse) gets easier, but it never gets better." I haven't reached "easier" yet and I am pretty sure they're right and that I'll never reach "better." Until He calls me home. Then I'll be better. So until then, I just do the best I my trust and my life in my Father's Hands and remind myself that He's not shaken.

**Remember to scroll down and pause my player before listening**

You're Not Shaken ~ Phil Stacey

You're Not Shaken

I am sinking in a river that is raging
I am drowning, will I ever rise to breathe again
I want to know why I just want to understand
Will I ever know why

How could this be from Your hand
When every little thing that I have dreamed would be
Just slips away like water through my hand
And when it seems the walls of my belief are crashing down

Like they're all made of sand
I won't let go of You now, because I know You're not shaken
I'm trembling in the darkness of my own fear
All the questions with no answers still grip me while

I'm here And I may never know why I may not understand
But I will lift up my eyes And trust this is Your plan
When I am in the valley of the shadow of death
You're not shaken, You're not shaken

You're right here beside me and
You have never left
You're not shaken, You're not shaken

"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus."
Philippians 1:6


Diane@Diane's Place said...

I don't know that it gets easier or better, but I think you learn how to deal with their absence with time. You never stop loving them and missing them, I know that.


Jody said...

Praying for you that God will be your stronghold and that you will continue to put your trust in Him. God will not forsake those who seek Him.(Psalm 9:9-10)

Greg said...

Jesus knows what it's like to lose a loved one... happens every time an unsaved person dies. But He also knows how to comfort and heal, and He will do it for you. You're doing the (only) right thing: to continue trusting in Him and following His Word. We're all praying for you. :)