Monday, May 18, 2009

It's still Monday, right?

For a few more hours at least, it's still Monday. So there's still time to share this week's Music Monday song with you.

Have you ever given much thought to the fact that this world is geared for two-sies? It's hard being a one-sie in a two-sie world. Believe it. Some days it hits me harder than others. I keep waiting to wake up and feel "normal." And then I realize...this is my new normal. Welcome to life as a one-sie. Can I just tell you - I hate it. *sigh*

This week's song doesn't really have anything to do with the above observation. Except that I heard it on my car radio as I was driving to meet a friend for dinner after work. And thinking that while I'm thankful for my friends, I'd so much rather be having dinner with my Sweet Hubby - even just one more time. I listened to the words of this song and thought, "Yeah Lord, I'm just one little voice down here. One little one-sie voice. With all the pain and suffering in the world, do you hear the sound of my heart breaking?"

**Remember to scroll down and pause my player before clicking the link.**

Hold My Heart ~ Tenth Avenue North

"A joyful heart makes a cheerful face, but when the heart is sad, the spirit is broken." Proverbs 15:13


Tamela's Place said...

Wow a true cry of the heart.. What a powerful song! It is the cry of so many. God how we long for you and desire you to come and take us into your arms and out of this place of sorrow. Hear your people oh God and come to them... We love you Jesus and we cry out to you.. we need you so desperately.

Dawn said...

I married much older than the norm at that time (though it's a much older norm now days), but did feel like a onesie. I haven't had to experience it yet at this end of the cycle, but can only imagine. Watching my MIL and all the widows in our church, I know it's a lonely place to be.

The Lord bless you today - wherever you are and whatever you do!

Jody said...

He does hear and know the sound of your breaking heart Gigi.
A new kind of normal is not easy to live. I'm sure you'd take the old normal any day. Praying for you today.

nancygrayce said...

Bless your heart! I don't envy you that. Even though it isn't the same, take every opportunity to be with friends.

Unknown said...

I am a onesie and it is my normal. I wish I could say the perfect thing to ease your grief but I know that it isn't that simple.

In my life, I have grieved. I have grieved the loss of what never was--unmet dreams and lost opportunities, disappointments, cancer, the death of my parents, and intense loneliness. I have known grief. But I cannot pretend to know yours.

I cling to the promise that "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and He saves those who are crushed in spririt." He is. He does.

Gigi, I believe that you have a future. A future that will not be so full of pain as it is now. A future full of turns in the road and wonderful surprises. And I'm talking about this side of Heaven. It probably doesn't feel like that now, but just wait and you'll see. You are here for a reason and your tears will not be wasted.

In my journey, today, I do not grieve as I used to. I have much more joy than tears. One day, you will, too. Just wait and see...